I started this Tumblr to write more, and to talk about things I wanted to do when I got older. I picked a list of thirteen things that I wanted to accomplish, some honest, some kind of goofy. Three years later, I have completed none of them. My interest in doing so varies widely by item, between “a lot” and “zero.” So by other barometers I got older, but perhaps by this one, I didn’t.
I’ve decided to retire thingsimgoingtodowhenigetolder. As a username, it’s long, hard to share, and doesn’t fit neatly into my Twitter profile. As a reflection of who I am right now, it’s not a good one. Whatever I seek to do “when I get older” should be more aspirational, not a mere to-do list. If I was repicking that list right now, the one item I’d want on it is to be happy. Whatever the means to achieving that is, I’m trying to figure out.
I wrote recently about a depression that’s been creeping in over the past couple years, mixed with a good amount of anxiety. I want to assure you of two things: first, retiring this Tumblr doesn’t have much to do with that; second, I’m doing OK. Not super, not everything’s better, but OK. Some of the challenges I’m facing were a long time in the making. It will take time to overcome them. I’m talking with a therapist every couple weeks now. She’s explained some things about how our brains work that clarified things I’ve been struggling with, identified some feelings and thoughts I was having that I didn’t realize I was having, and is helping me break down how I should address all that into some easy, manageable steps. I made a few personal changes that are helping, and I still have others I need to make. I have good days and bad days, but on the whole my outlook has been more positive the last few weeks, and I think I’m making progress. My therapist noted I’m not a weepy, defeated mess anymore when I come in, so that’s a pretty good affirmation. It went okay telling my mom I was in therapy. She’s been really supportive. I don’t want to share that experience here, but I’ve been writing about all this in a journal, which is a sort of Tumblr that only I can see (mine’s even password protected).
So that’s all for now. Thanks to the couple of you who’ve followed me since Mousetrap; I think I’ve met or know you all in real life now, which is super cool.
Thanks to all who follow me because of Briana. I’m lucky she’s mine.
I <3 Tumblr and will be back. Let you know where.
Off to challenge myself. Thanks—
"There’s a cold logic behind the willingness of some conservatives to risk everything to stop Obamacare. But it’s not that Obamacare will fail. After all, if the law will just be a debacle, Republicans should let it take effect, ride the catastrophe to overwhelming victory in the 2014 midterms, and then use their massive congressional majorities to repeal it.
Rather, as EJ Dionne writes, the real fear is that the law will succeed. Once Obamacare begins delivering health insurance to millions of Americans it will become effectively impossible to repeal. That’s what’s happened in every other country that’s introduced a national health-care system. That’s why the right needs to stop Obamacare before it begins.
The irony of their strategy, though, is that shutting down the federal government won’t stop Obamacare. It might even help it.”"
Ezra Klein on the Affordable Health Care Act (via invisiblelad)
Yep. I’ve been saying all along that the reason conservatives have been going after the ACA so hard is because they’re afraid of just how successful it will be. Once it’s fully implemented, there will be no going back.
Accurate. A friend of mine just got her insurance quote for the post-Obamacare world. Her monthly premium? $116. Republicans are right to be scared. Once we have universal healthcare (or at least, the privatized American version of it), they won’t be able to take it away from us.(via thebicker)